Life is about the choices we make and risks we (are willing to) take. And I decided a long time ago, that what I want to be when I grow up, is happy. There's a note on my mirror that has been there for at least 15 years that says: "What if you'd die tomorrow, are you happy?". Obviously not happy about dying but happy about the life you've lived. I still don't always consciously read the note, but I think I've always seen it somehow and I do know that it's there. And that is what I have been trying to do since I put it up there I guess. Make the choices that, in the end, make me happy.Of course, it would have been 'easy' if I could have been happy with the same old same. A man on my side, a near future of getting married and having children as a lot of my friends are doing right now (not that I am saying that finding love is easy, quite the contrary, I think there's work, effort and luck involved there as well). But I chose to travel, I chose to take a different path, I chose to not participate in any of it. Of course I have had a few relationships and in the end, I chose that it was not what made me truly happy, not at the moment anyway.
Traveling, meeting new people, seeing/meeting friends and family around the world, discovering all these wonders of the world, that is what makes me happy (at the moment), those are the things that put a smile on my face each and every day. Anything or anyone holding me back was/were a weakness to me, something or someone I would try to forget to live my dream. And I know it sounds selfish and in this case, it is. I am not a selfish person in general, not at all. But when I have my mind set on something, I am going for it 100%! And that is why it is better to do this alone, without leaving anyone behind. Because that is what it felt like. And there have been times that I was away, that I felt alone of course, but never for long and it's okay to be alone too at times and knowing that in the end it will be worth it. And besides WiFi was never too far to be found and so neither were my friends and family. And I have learned in the past who my friends are and who will always be my friends, no matter where I am or when I would return :). Of course, it hasn't always been the easiest thing to do, to leave, to say goodbye (farewell), to let go, even though I know many of you think I live this fairy-tale life. And in some way I do, true. But to every upside, there's a downside. I just focus on the upside and let go of the downside. It's not worth my time to dwell on the downside when the upside is so fantastic!!
I do what makes me happy, now. I always aim to live without any regrets and I have done well so far. But it's not as if everything came falling in to my lap or money grows on a tree in my backyard. I have worked hard for it and as a friend said, we don't sacrifice or give up anything, we choose to do so. I chose this path, this way of living. And I, 100% support that choice.
It's been a while since I put anything this personal in one of my posts, but I heard, it is what people want to read ;). With that, I wish everyone a healthy and most of all happy life, no matter which choices you have made in the past or will make in the future! If this is your life's path, you go for it and be happy :)! Ksx