How did it get to this?

How did a fly lose a wing? I just saw a fly walking outside, because it can't fly anymore. I figured, he can still walk so he'll survive, that is until he will get stepped on.

How did it get to this? How did it get to the point that school is not a priority anymore, but an obligation? That I just want to enjoy life, with or without an diploma...of course I will do whatever I can do get the d*mn thing. I was so mad when school made that mistake of approving my report in the beginning of June, and told me do the defence only to tell me afterwards that the report wasn't good enough. They took away the 3 weeks in between that I could have used to fix it, but because they approved it in the first place, I lost those weeks. That is why I have to do it now...

How did it get to the point that I have those days that I don't feel like doing anything, even though I have plenty to do....that I know I will be working nights to try to fix it, because that is what I do.

How did it get to the point that I just want to pack my stuff and leave...look for that adventure, look for that excitement...just leave everything and everyone behind? I guess it's running away, running away for those obligations that I don't feel like doing anymore, but I have to. It's to important...to who? I don't know....I just want to be done with it...unfortunately I will have to really work on my report...work those hours again, those long days, those weeks...until it is finished...

That will be the point that I can finally enjoy my holiday. I am planning on going to USA (florida, visit and support family) July 24th - Sept 6th. Six weeks of Florida Sunshine, Six weeks of enjoying life, six weeks of living with them again, them being the family (aunt, uncle, nephew and niece) I lived with for 6 months before during my internship. I look forward to it..a lot! And I have been looking forward to it for a couple of months now...but you can't have the one without the other.....so finish school and enjoy your time there...

It's a quarter after 14 and I still don't feel like doing anything...how did it get to this?