The roundabout of life

As I've said before, I think everything you do or that 'happens' comes down to the choices you or somebody else make. And rather than looking at everything in black and white and saying you can only go left or right, there are far more options.

The roundabout. The roundabout of life, a safe yet confusing place to be. No idea what to do or what effect it will have on your 'safe' life. You just continue going in circles and nothing changes. Or you choose to go somewhere; a new direction or to continue in the same direction to get closer to where you were already headed or even turn back to where you came from.

The highway. Going from A to B, kind of a limited (speed) life but with a clear vision. Sometimes you slow down and nothing special is going on, sometimes you get to go wild and speed up a bit! Or you might even go over the limit at times, doing something out of the ordinary. Or again, take an exit to avoid obstacles, to take a detour or to change direction.

And then you've got your intersections, your actual left and right options, traffic lights, stop signs, etc. There are so many options to slow down, speed up, change directions and even to just come to a full stop at times. And the same goes for life. It's all about the direction you want to go in to. 

And most of the times, I guess I go all over the place, having never ending options to continue in whichever direction I want. Work? Travel? Settle? Leave? And to even turn back at times (to my moms house and a certain lifestyle), and of course as we are all human, perhaps take a wrong turn.

Although, is it really a 'wrong turn'? Living in the moment without any regrets, not always thinking things through. I've been there, people looking at me or talking about or to me as if I did something 'wrong', sometimes involving alcohol (btw to come back to my earlier comparison; don't drink and drive!!). But most if the times, I am leading my heart 'in to battle' first and leaving my thoughts behind. Truly living in the moment and letting go of everything else. The world around me doesn't exist, the people around me aren't there. Tomorrow or yesterday doesn't count anymore. Nothing else, no consequences, but just that moment. And it might not always make sense but eh it's still me, no filter, no restrictions. Drinking, dancing, screaming, singing, crying, kissing, but mostly laughing and just enjoying myself and the people around me and with that said, I don't think it's a wrong turn at all. Perhaps it's just the person 'next to you', another side of you, the one yanking the steering wheel to spice life up a bit. To get you to do something out of the ordinary, to change direction and to go over the speed limit and to just live.

As life itself has many different sides, so do people. And to truly experience life and to truly know a person, you learn to appreciate all sides. I guess I am trying to say that whatever you do, whichever direction you go into, as long as you are fully behind that choice, it's never 'wrong'. It's a different side, a different choice, but one that too made you and your life what it is today, so embrace it. 

Ps; this blog might be confusing for a bit or all over the place, but eh so am I a bit now and again ^_^!